Son of a bitch, Jim James's voice makes me want to conquer the world and then hand it back to whoever it was I conquered it from with a kiss on both cheeks. No, not exactly. Maybe sail a cruise ship by myself as fast as possible, hanging from the front like Kate Winslett?
Goddamn, I know it's not a good idea to look too closely at either extreme sadness or extreme hapiness, but I've been feeling pretty good lately. It's because I'm learning how to work well, maybe, and I've been hanging out with peoples. It's like I'm rediscovering the world or something. I was really in a fucking shell there for a while. But fuck it. I learned things. I feel like I'm in love but I don't love anyone at the moment. That Italy trip changed some shit i think. Loneliness in Italy. A kind of primitive boredom. What kind of boredom did Adam feel, not having known excitement, the roar of the crowd?
The other day I'm walking back from work listening to "FM" by The Junior Boys, which Jon and I agreed reminded us of all the good things in the world, and I almost started crying, suddenly, right there in the street! I had this image of myself laughing wildly on a boat in the Mediterranean, against a hard blue sky, the wind in the face, spinning the steering wheel of the yacht with one hand, and I sort of sobbed a couple times, it was so beautiful. Weird huh?
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